I feel nostalgic, thinking about the good times I ve shared with my friends. The long walks along the streets of coimbatore, talking abt the most mundane things.....laughing our heads off at things so silly...sipping coffee at annapurna or browns or coffee day....going to the movies and bitching out aloud in the theatres....cribbing about the city...the pressures of college and life in general....those were carefree days....Now I yearn for my friends.....to share a joke... a laugh...I miss my buddies in laughter....

The wind thats rushing against my skin. Bliss
Listening to the black bird whistle
Watching the leaves rustle
Purple bouganvillas dancing away
Blades of grass bowing to the twilight reiging over the evening
Why worry about the future that is so hazy and the past,
It is so crazy
When you have the joy of being in the present
Why not make the best of it
Why not enjoy the wind some more and
Look at the skies clear
I know God rests somewhere here within the glow in my eyes
and the smile on my lips
The feeling in my heart
Oh! I see God!
I feel God in every breath of contentment

Song sung blue..

Tujhse naaraaz nahi zindagi hairaan hoon mai , oh hairaan hoon mai
Teri masoom sawaalon se pareshaan hoon mai, oh pareshan hoon mai

The Best Things Ever - Courtesy Uncyclopedia

The Best Things Ever
God
Timelessness-4 billion BC

God wins the slot for the first Best Thing Ever, as he is reported to be the only thing ever for a long, unimaginable stretch of time. As the creator of the list itself, he brought a second thing into being, at first solely for the purpose of giving his sense of self-confidence something solid to believe in, but soon the joy of creating things got the best of him, and he went wild.

Oxygen
4 billion BC-60 million BC

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth, and a bunch of other boring shit that everyone takes for granted. Yadda yadda yadda, and then He created life. This life promptly died within the first few minutes of creation, no matter how many times He tried to make it. Eventually, He realized that the life He created couldn’t breathe, and so He invented oxygen, which allowed life to flourish.
God then realized that, according to the list, He had created something even more important than Himself, and went into seclusion for 4 billion years and running. His last words were reportedly “Yeah, well, I was on the list the longest, and nothing’s going to take that record from me!”
And you know what? There’s no way to prove Him wrong.


Humans
60 million BC-45 million BC

And the life known as ‘Dinosaur’ died, and so humans stepped up to claim their position as the greatest species on planet earth. They survived the alien death rays that killed off the dinosaurs, and as such, they celebrated. They threw such a wild party that creation itself took notice of them, and inscribed homo sapien on the Official List of the Best Things in Existence.

To Be. I choose...

The Road Not Taken

- Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

To be or not to be

Indecision is my biggest vice. I am forever weighing the pros and cons of any situation. It comes out of fear and lack of confidence I suppose. I am afraid of coming to a decision and not being able to handle things when stuff goes wrong. It is difficult to choose when every situation has its advantages and disadvantages. You win some and you lose some.

My journey through life has brought me to a fork right now which leads to two different paths. Both seem worthwhile from where I stand. Both the paths can lead me to where I want to be in life, my ultimate goal. So which one do I choose? One of the paths will put me on my way to the goal a wee bit sooner than the other one. I really want to stick to that one. But the people closest to me advise me to take the other path which requires a lot of patience from my side. If I stick to that path I will end up in a similar situation after a year when I will have to make a choice again.

The decision has to be mine and I am as usual confused. This is the first major decision I will be taking in my life. I have always been offered stuff before on a platter. In a way I am spoilt as a person and it is not a good thing at all.

I have always been a dreamer all through my life and so far my dreams have remained just that. When you want your dreams to transform into reality you gotta get on the field and play the game, make choices, make mistakes, learn from them and keep going until you achieve what you really want.

I have been waiting in the pavillion for my turn to come all this while. Dreaming of hitting a century, winning the match, being the man of the match, getting a standing ovation from my team mates and the audience, holding the cup high up in the air and making my captain and my team proud of me. All this while sitting in the pavillion waiting for my turn.

After the coin is tossed, heads or tails, I have to abide by the rules, once it is decided our team has to bat, I need to make up my mind whether to go in first or wait for my turn after one batsman gets out. So with the later option I will have to wait until the batsman gets out.

At this point of time my life is at the stage when the coin is tossed and I am watching the coin somersault in air. Whatever be the outcome I shall accept it with all humility, I have no choice there. What I am worried about is what if I have to bat? Will I be able to do it? Will I be able to handle the pressure of going in first? or listen to what my coach says and simply wait in the pavillion until the first batsman getsout?

All this is bogging me down. Winners are made of sterner stuff. I have never aspired mediocrity or sameness in life. Not many are going to be around to support me in any decision I take. They are all waiting to point fingers at me when I fail.
"Look I told you this was going to happen" "You never listened to us anyway now you suffer the consequences"

Am I ready to stand by my decision and fight against the whole world all alone? I want to. I am praying hard. I need strength to go through this. It may not me that big a deal for anyone else. For me it a fight for my life and my goals.

I am

pas·sion·ate (psh-nt) adj: Capable of, having, or dominated by powerful emotions

Oscar Wilde From Uncyclopedia, Go check it out

"As one great man has said to another, 'Shut the fuck up Charles.'" ~ Oscar Wilde

"I've never even seen a law. How can I break something I can't see?" ~ Oscar Wilde

"I love the French language.... fantastic language, especially to curse with... it's like wiping your arse with silk" ~ Oscar Wilde

"The Japanese language is, by far, the greatest barrier to communication ever created by man." ~ Oscar Wilde, The Gift of the Mikado

"Counter clockwise means nothing to a digital watch" ~ Oscar Wilde

"I doubt, therefore I might be" ~ Oscar Wilde

On a lighter note :)

"The theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory which states that this has already happened"

- Douglas Adams

They also serve who only stand and wait

The journey feels the longest and most tiresome when your destinatination gets closer. Most quit .. It takes courage to hang in there.

Sometimes we forget ourselves even while leading self obsessed lives. We tend to do the same things we preach others against doing. From time to time, it helps to get a fresh perspective from another person on our lives. That is why we need to cherish our friends.

But friends betray too. Can't blame them they are human beings after all.

We need to have faith and trust just that one person who will never let go. Most of us call it God. It helps to have blind faith and hope in His powers.

It doesn't pay to be a cynic.We need to believe to achieve.

But make sure the belief isn't misplaced. Human beings can let you down. God can't and He wont because you created Him in the first place. You can't let yourself down. God is just an extension of yourself. If you believe you exist, He exists too.

When everyone around you has let you down, you are confused and you feel low. Just turn to Him for comfort. Thats what I did today. I resorted to God ultimately and I feel good.

We all live in a selfish world. We face our battles alone and we can never live by the principle of entitlement!!!

I am learning it the hard way. Detachment is the key.

The solitude of company

They felt like mist, like dew, like cloud
A mirage soon forgotten amidst the dusky lanes
Of morn, You were there so was I
It was new. There was bliss
Fear crept in earthly binds
Unavoidable abided the binds
Fleeting moments of ecstasy
Intensity of soul searching music
Disppeared floating into souls never unearthed
Lest good be spoken of as evil
For purity of thought, of deed, of love
Incomprehensible, alone I stand
Seeking your hands of comfort,of company
Stand with me.. I fear you wont
Pride and prejudice I wade across
Wont you too?
To feel the gentle breeze
The tenderness of knowing beyond the sensory
Into the yonder, to cherish the solitude of company

The basic difference between men and women

The basic difference between men and women or is there a basic difference at all...?!!?!!?!

I dont think there is a need to create and probe a gender difference here. I just feel there are a lot of different people who happen to be men and women. The difference lies irrespective of the gender.

But one thing can of course be said that women are a wee bit more emotional and insecure when it comes to relationships than men usually are. I think the most important thing in a relationship is emotional security. Once that is stabilised and maintained, it is a smooth ride for the both of them. But then again it is the most difficult thing to achieve.

I dont like it when anyone talks stuff to me like, "oh I know how you women are! All the same", " Just like you women to behave like this". Treat me like a person....my own self, dont treat me like a brand ambassador for all the women of the world. I am not one for sure :)

I am just a 21 year old , going through life like any other person my age. It is unfair to typecast me with the rest of them. We are all unique in our own ways. We have our own set of trials and we face them in our own unique manner. However odd or weird they may be.

There might of course be a pattern in the way men and women usually behave. But I dont want to be bothered with that.

I dont understand why there is a need to differentiate between the sexes. It would be so much simpler if we are looked at and treated as individuals rather than as a boy or a girl.

Looking at the larger picture I say, "To hell with feminism! To hell with male chauvanism! Lets talk humanitarianism here...The world would definitely be a better place if every man simply accepted a woman as another human being as strong or as vulnerable as himself rather than treating her as just a mere object of lust or loathe and if every woman treated man as her equal and not consider him inferior or superior to herself.

We speak of being secular when we are practising the most primitive, most basic discrimination, the "gender discrimination". Why???
I dont know...

Its just the way it has been over ages I guess... It is high time though that the trend changes..It is time we learnt to respect and accept our fellow human beings just the way they are. My identity ought to be defined not by my gender but by my capabailities as an individual.

Unbearable heaviness of being

I dont really relish the idea of beginning my blog on an unbearable note....But that is exactly how I feel today...I feel weighed down by the heaviness of my existence. No attempt from my side to cheer up is working out.

So in a nutshell I created this blog to vent. To unleash the the beauty, the beast and the confused soul within me.

Phew!.. I feel relieved already... at the very thought of unloading my feelings... letting them disperse into the cyberspace :)
Until next time
Adios